about the truth

Do I really worship God?

Do I 'worship' him with my mouth, or with my actions?

Do I 'worship' him with the song of my lips, or the song of my life?

Do I 'worship' him for 20 minutes on Sunday morning, or do I worship Him all day, every day?

Do I 'worship' him thinking that He can't see right through me, or do I acknowledge him for the God he is?

Do I 'worship' him with sin in my heart, or do I worship him with a repentant heart?

Do I 'worship' him with my nose in the air, or my face on the ground?

Do I 'worship' him with my fleshly deception, or in spirit and truth?

Is my faith dead, or am I a living sacrifice?

Do I really worship God?


I need to think about this every single day. Because if i'm not, then I have a problem.

it's taking me down; He's taking me down.

I feel terrible right now. These past few weeks have been nothing but craziness, and after a day like this, all I feel like doing is curling into a ball and shedding every tear I have in my body. It seems everything in my life right now is falling apart. Certain relationships, certain situations... I just don't know what to do anymore. Lately me and one of my really close friends were talking and I just couldn't stand it anymore. I feel like he's always (figures. it WOULD be a guy) pointing out my flaws. From my habits and how I tend to be pessimistic at times to the little things I do, so many of the different things I do he seems to have an issue with. In my family, we're financially struggling (then again, who isn't?) and it just seems to add to the stress of everything else. Every little thing I say or they say sets one of us off, and the next thing you know, we're all in bad moods in the midst of fights. It's only second week of school and I already feel myself being worn thin. From newspaper and yearbook editor meetings to the the square root of pie, I am already feeling exhausted. Just writing this right now, I feel like weeping. I don't know what to do. God seems to be farther and farther away, and I don't know what to do about it.